uncareers.

Let it be known, I am a college graduate, who obtained and saw through its expiration a provisional license for early childhood education, and am currently a nanny.  A nanny making $2 less an hour for doing the same thing I did before I graduated.

Don't get me wrong: kids are awesome.  And yes, I am a normal person who complains about my day, but I love being a nanny and overall I am not worried about what I make, as long as I can pay my bills and save a little, and I've been blessed to be able to do both of those things thus far.  I just know that I could have done "more".

Does this make me feel like a failure?  Sometimes.  But I'll be real with you, I never even applied for ONE teaching job upon graduation.  I would be lying if I didn't admit that some of it had to do with my consuming fear of rejection, but also having student taught for Oyler School in Cincinnati Public, and performing most of my observations and classroom management in the same, as well as substitute teaching in a few more schools for Cincinnati Public, it is fair to say I became disenchanted with the profession.

My decision to not pursue a career in teaching was (is) a disappointment to many people, chiefly my parents, who funded that endeavor.  Sorry mom and dad.

I am still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life.

Rob really wants us to do a business together, and we came up with a company we call Two If By Sea Designs for a project back when he was still in school.  In this notactuallyexistant business, Rob and I would provide multiple services including web design, graphic design, and on my end, photography.

Because yes, I would love to do photography.  Unfortunately, there is so much equipment that I would need, and I would want to take classes, etc etc etc.  And it would be so freaking expensive.

Also, doesn't it seem like everybody is becoming a freelance photographer nowadays?  It's kind of annoying.

And of course there is that ever-present part of me, that tells me that it wouldn't even be worth it, because there are so many people that are and always will be better than me, and who am I kidding?

But seriously.

Why do people feel like they have to have a career in order to be successful?