i should be sleeping

I did not have a good day.  Being honest, this week was crap.  Nothing in particular made it this way, it was really a culmination of how I feel physically, a build up of my attitude toward this job in general, and the fact that I was somewhat screwed today.  Really I cried the whole way driving home.  And then it rained.

But anyway, I have been up for over an hour and I should be sleeping, but my brain won't let me stop thinking about today and it is pretty much really annoying.



In attempt to clear my head of negative crap I have been looking at baby crap on Target's website.  It's really overwhelming and hasn't really made me feel better.

So, I will write about something that does make me feel good, and that is that we have picked out a name for baby boy!  It is going to be (dun, dun, dun...)

Eli Thomas Chipman!

Yep, that's what we picked.  His initials will be ETC so we will avoid monogrammed junk.  I was initially having a really hard time finding a boy's name I liked.  At first I thought I liked the name Liam, but there are like a zillion Liams and one day I was at my mom's house and she was expressing her distaste in the name, which was really random, and I hadn't even told her I was considering it.  At that point I marked it off my list (which was unfortunately, of only one).  Then I thought I liked the name Levi, and I still do.  It was kind of like Liam except not  Liam, so maybe people would like it.  Rob was okay with it, but he didn't love it.  And one day when I was at my mom's house I decided to test the waters and just say, "I like the name Levi", to which my brother responded it is a horrible name.  Disagree, but moving on.  Anyway, one of our girl names we both really liked was Eliza (the others were Mara and Norah, if you were wondering), and so Eli is kind of like Eliza so naturally I liked it.  And Rob liked it too.  And so we decided to go with that.  And all along I knew I wanted to use the middle name Thomas, after my grandpa.

I know I said I wasn't going to share for a while, but after Rob and I decided on the name Eli, I decided maybe we should just tell people so if they didn't like it, they had until August to get used to it.  Plus it is kind of nice being able to refer to the little person inside of me who is constantly poking and jabbing by a name that he will have for the rest of his life.  It's kind of sweet.